So….I’m trying to get through a 2ww that I know doesn’t have a hope in hell of being successful. I keep looking at my fertility tracker ap to see how many days have passed and when I can realistically pee on a stick, or a $10 bill. Those commercials for First Response® – EARLY RESULT PREGNANCY TEST get me EVERY time! Know 5 days sooner!!! How can it be that years have passed of us trying to get pregnant and yet the 2 week wait is TORTURE? Maybe someone can explain these mysteries along with time travel.
How do you get through the 2ww? I wish someone would tell me.
It’s like a bee whirring around in my brain, coming to the forefront of my thoughts and then looping to the background and then buzzing round again over and over. I wonder if this is how people start to hear voices or go insane? Sometimes I manage to switch it off and to be honest I am glad we took a bit of a break and relaxed, well, tried to. Now though I just feel it ramping back up again.
For some reason I opened up my journal from 2002 and read about my worries then. Most of the things I wished for happened. My worries then seemed so small now. They made me smile and think, I hope one day I look back and realized that all the things I hoped for now also come true. I also wanted to tell my younger self to relax and not be so stressed out and focused on the one negative thing and worry about it over and over. Maybe I should apply some of the advice I’m giving myself now to my old self and apply it to today? Boy, what have I learned??!! Also, one day I had recorded my weight….now there’s a way to get depressed. Trust me, 26 year old former self, you are NOT fat!
On another note you should SEE the bruise inside my mouth from the stabbing I received at the dentist from the two needles. Unbelievable. I can barely open my mouth all the way to eat. In other news, I’ve lost 3 pounds. Take that 26 year old!