Ok, well here’s the thing. When I look back to January 2010 and the surgeries, tests, multiple losses, hospitalizations, and the sheer amount of people staring at my cooch and insides (minor segue, I’ve stopped going for bikini waxes to limit how many people see my vagina on a monthly basis) and all the blood I’ve given away I feel like I’ve been at this forever. When I start to research, read blogs and message boards and books and talk to people and doctors and specialist I feel like I’m not doing enough and that I should know better. I should eat better, track my temperature, track my cervical mucus, do fertility yoga and just plain read more. (I just found out that apparently you shouldn’t eat peas when you’re trying to conceive).
So yesterday I scheduled an appointment for acupuncture. They sent me a 7 page form to complete in advance of my treatment. One page had these questions on
In the space below, please provide us with a thorough answer to each question so that we can understand your goals and dreams:
Why do you want to have a child?
What makes a good parent?
How do you nuture yourself and your relationship?
How would you describe your relationship?
What brings you joy?
What are you grateful for?
Er, could you just stick me with a needle please so I can have a baby?
Is that wrong? Do I not have the right attitude? Is this my performance review and I’m not quite meeting expectations? I should be more knowledgeable right? That’s why I keep getting the comments on my report card of “….if JM could just try harder she would make an excellent parent”. Or, “if JM could apply herself more diligently she would proceed to the next level.”
Complete acupuncture essay
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