I just found out that I tested positive on the lupus anti-coagulant blood test. Wahey! I had previously tested negative for it so I’m not sure what this means.
I’ve scheduled in for an endometrial biopsy next Wednesday. Who’s had this done …. how painful is it? I’m REALLy scared of pain in my vagina.
The Dr. I saw at the RPL clinic is away until October 5th. So I can’t get any information until then. The results from the biopsy take 3 weeks to come in and then the clinic will contact me to go over those results and the results of the blood tests from August 31. More waiting!!
I’ve contacted the fertility clinic because I’m wondering if we need to put IUI #6 on hold until we know more. And also just to go over everything….where are we? What are we doing? What’s the plan?
The Dr. at the RPL clinic also suggested that I be tested for celiac.
Didn’t get the pedicure….boo. Must rectify this weekend.
I’m so tired of pretending everything is ok. It takes all my effort to keep it together, at work, with friends, at social functions, with family. Who am I reassuring? Certainly not myself. It’s all a front and I’m scared. I am just scared. I’m losing the reasons why we are pursuing this. It’s too hard. But, how do I give up? I don’t know how to do that.
If you see me and my smile doesn’t reach my eyes and you look closely enough you’ll see my sadness. If you ask me too kindly how I’m doing I might just lose it. If I type a blog post about it I start crying. I read other’s journeys and admire their courage and tenacity.
I read this post over at B’s blog and just seeing the picture of that movie set me off!
We took a break for May, June and July I can’t do another one…so much time has passed.
So much time has passed
How will I know when to stop?